Love story

 

When first I heard that voice so sweet and tender

To warmth and longing my heart did surrender

As my thoughts would desperately show

That distance became a hurtful foe

 

As my love for her would grow

She no knowing or interest did show

So as the madness with me grew

I tried to hide a love so true

 

As time went by in meaningless tale

I tried to stop, only to fail

For no mater how hard I would try

Her tender smile my heart would pry

 

It was not long that I would find

A love of another her thoughts did bind

So despair within me I found

As loving in vain I was bound

 

With a slip of the tongue or fate it be

Or weakness, or want of her to see

I declared my love for her that day

And feared that I had driven her away

 

Her understanding I found was strong

When she told me I nothing did wrong

A warmth I knew, jet no hope did see

For I thought the other man better than me

 

Thus becoming what I did not like

Giving others hope, knowing pain would strike

Misery I knew, disliking myself I found

No future saw just hell ward bound

 

I turned a deaf ear to her, and thought

In absence I would not her mind distraught

For many a day I saw her pass by

Ignore her each time I will not lie

 

Yet deep within me the pain grew

As without her smile I no joy knew

So out of weakness I called one day

Not sure or knowing what to say

 

The words that came out, I remember not

But what she said I have not forgot

“I may love him I do not deny,

But I love you too, that is no lie”

 

It stuck me hard, it made me wild

I could not believe, I felt like a child

How could I ever be so blessed?

Her loving voice my heart caressed

 

As days went by in sweet surrender

I drowned in her loving voice so tender

But deep within me a war did rage

I wanted more, I felt encaged

 

Knowing the other had her heart

And realizing he was there from the start

I felt it wrong it was not I

Never before did I a possessed heart pry

 

But no mater how I tried or fought

Love does not die, that much I was taught

So as despair within me grew

She loves him more I thought it true

 

It came to pass in early spring

As I in distemper harsh words did bring

“Go to him, please let me be

Sharing you heart is not for me”

 

In tears and heartache I heard her cry

“Please let me speak, calm down, please try”

So I kept quiet, my anger subsided

After all, to put end I had decided

 

So as I listened to her every words

What came out mad me feel a nerd

I though long and hard, looking deep within

Not wishing to hurt neither you nor him

 

Love him I did and feel I still do

But stronger is the love I feel for you”

The joy I felt, to hard to describe

Thought no chance had, even lost my pride

 

But now I saw the chance to again hold

The heart of an angel, a heart of gold

It did not last, the chance to hold

For very long just like a song come to scold

 

As time goes by and the chance within me dies

Tears role down my face and my heart cries

Unkind is fate, oh how I hate, my heart is cold

Alone I will be for all to see till I grow old

           

                                     Vic (C) 2005